The feeling of not being able wishing your father " Happy Fathers Day"

Life: 19 June
Time: 12.56

Life: 19 June 2011

Well today is Father's Day, got my first wishing from Chong King. What a nice son :) still waiting 5 more wishes from Kai Hong, Germin, Cai Ting, Asffaq and Amirul :)

Cute and nice god-children I have..too bad its just God-children not real ones. I don mind taking them as my real kids though ( laughs). Talking about Fathers day, I haven't wish my father a Happy Father's Day for 5 years... 

Leaving the family without an ans, no contact for 5 years, people come knocking at the house door for money, leaving me and my mum alone to hold ourselves at hard times?? I wanna disown you badly, though I still love you. 5 years and counting, wondering when you will be back. Even if you did, I won't talk to you much after those hurtful and broken promises you made to me. I haven't seen you for so long, even if you come back as a change man, you got to prove it first but I won't accept it immediately...

- Not all the time I forgive all your bad things, even I can't forgive myself for the things I had done.

It happens again

Time: 11.11

Date : 14 June 2011

Quite alot of things happen today. I woke up at 4 plus pm cos i slept at 5 am yesterday?? Got bang by some stupid Ah beng until almost drop my phone. And lastly not long ago, I quarreled with her. ( I think )

I didn't really know what was wrong with me, i guess it was guys natural reaction i guess ?? But yah, I didn't have a place to rant at so I did it at twitter. I really dk how to talk to you when I'm in a mode of jealousy. Everything just seem so.... Frustrating I guess. I know no matter how many times I apologize, you wouldn't want to talk to me. Ok I admit I'm jealous k?? I'm just very jealous, but I wouldn't tell anyone about the problems anymore. I'm just going to keep everything to myself.  I wonder if you are going to hate me or sth, but I know its going to be bad for me if you did it..

How am I going to apologize to you?? I'm the type of guy that even by apologizing I still wouldn't feel alright. Thats what i don like about myself, I tend to irritated people if i do so. 

My body is still shaking even after i saw the msges, I just couldn't stop myself.. It isn't the first time though. But really I didn't stalk you. It was on the newsfeed.

I'm sorry, I just couldn't take it when this kind of things happen. I really sorry.

" Nothing in mind to have a p.s " 

The Inspiration that kept me going on and on.

Time: 1.12 am
Date: 13 June 2011

Life : 13 June 2011

Decided not to stay emo liao -.- stupid emo. KKKKKKkkkk !! See the main pic?? HAHAHAS !!! QUEST CREW !! YAH BABY :DD They had been my inspiration to dance better, though i said in the previous about "blah-blah-blah" but my inspiration pic has woke me up ^^" Hahahas !!

Quest Crew : ABDC Season 3 Champion. Its a cool Crew though. Creative, smooth, unexpected and lastly. AWESOME ^^ 

Quest Crew is like a God to me or sth ^^, I always want to be a part of them ^^ ( if posiible :/) but yah, even if so I don, I want to create a crew like them. Seven people in a team or more. Shuffling dancing here and there, Making new ways to dance. Wowww !! My imagination sure can go wild though :DD Hahahas !!! But yah :/ I hope to be like them one day i guess ?? Like Hok, Ryanimay, Feng, Victor !! So many of them :/ but they are so cool !! Will work hard to be like them one day ^^  

OK!! NEXT CREW IS.......

JABBAWOKEEZ 

ABDC ORIGINAL SEASON ONE CHAMPION !!!  WITH THEIR MASK ON, THEY LOOK LIKE THEY ALL ARE DOING THE SAME THING ^^ NICE~~~~
I LIKE THE WAY THE DANCE~~ SUPER SMOOTH AND NOTHING YOU  HAD SEEN BEFORE!! CAN'T WAIT TO SEE THEM IN PERSON IF POSSIBLE ^^ WWWWEEEEE!!!!!

LAST CREW IS......

POREOTIX

ABDC SEASON 5 CHAMPION !!! ^^

PO----> POPPING

REO-----> CHOREOGRAPHY 

TIX-----> ROBOTIX

I LIKE THEIR NAME, ITS DAMN COOL !! THEY ARE HUMOR AS WELL :) HAHAHAHAS ESPECIALLY THEIR TUTTING ^^ HAHAHAHAS

KKKKKKK, having headaches now :/ shall go to bed le hahahas ^^I never seem bored to talk about them cos I know endless story about them ^^ ( somehow :/) Hahahas shall post more in the future and less emo stuff ^^

Byezz~~~

" What if I told you, most of my inspiration and courage comes from you ?? Would you believe me??"